Decisions

I wish there was some device where I could feed in information and would automatically take a decision for me.I absolutely hate taking decisions. I have prolonged matters for as long as I could and hence lost out on a lot of things in numerous situations. And yet magically life always puts me or I guess all of us at some point into situations where we have to take life changing decisions time and again. Will they work? Won't they? Only time can tell.
I entered a world. A whole new world which was completely different from where I came from. It was large. It was beautiful. I met so many people. They became friends. Good friends. I learnt new things, got tremendous support and was encouraged to always try new things.
Yet however a time has come again in my life where I have to move on to something new. Will I miss that world that I called mine? Of course! But am I ready to give my life another chance to start a whole new chapter? I think I am...
Good or bad, only time can tell.
But that doesn't mean we don't try does it?

Time of Our Lives

Just want to tell you all that I love you guys! Dedicated to our friendship and only hope it gets stronger!..Muah

One day at a time

A note I wrote on facebook

The last time I tried to write this, facebook played villain and the whole note got deleted. Here's attempt 2. Nothing much to say really but its just been pretty long since I rambled something. I've always been into planning. Been an advance planner of sorts. Sometimes over planned. Like at 18 I knew what I wanted to name my children, that type of hilarious planning. Mom thought I was plain crazy while some friends blamed the typical Virgo meticulous planning syndrome raised to the power of infinity. However, as life plays its beautiful games with us all the time almost every plan that I thought I had figured completely backfired and I ended up with something totally different than what had been planned.
Not a shocker for many of you I'm certain. Life's like that! People told me to stop planning. Make a conscious effort to not think of how you want a particular situation to evolve, go with the flow, blah..blah..blah. But, come to think of it isn't making a conscious effort to not plan also a type of planning?
I had a plan, graduate at 21, complete PG by 23, start working with a newspaper for a couple of years, meet Mr Right (oh that illusion!! calls for a whole other note doesn't it ;)) have kids and life will be sorted by 30. So I graduated by 21 luckily haha, even completed post grad and secured a job with a leading newspaper in Mumbai. However, what do you do when on the first day of your first job within the first hour you realize that this is not where you want to be at all! This job that I had planned to get for x amount of years lasted as long as my tenure in the company. All of 8 hours!
You obviously don't have a back up! Like advance planning wasn't bad enough you actually expect me to have an advance back up plan? What do you do? It's simple really. You start all over again. It's difficult but you figure it out, it hurts but you learn to deal with the pain, you're alone but at least you are searching for something that will lead you to your inner peace which ultimately is the only thing that should matter
Start afresh, start step by step, don't regret and start one day at a time..

I love you Moombai!

Dear Bombay (As I know it),

I love you! I mean how can I not? You are my birthplace, the city that gave us place to live generations ago when my forefathers left my so called homeland in search for other opportunities I presume. You are the city I have grown up in, the only I have known as home. You are like that anchor that I come back to after days and weeks of living in foreign lands. At 28, I can safely say that I have seen my fair share of the world but no city in the world gives me that sense of comfort like you do. That's cause I know you. I know I belong to you. I always have and somewhere always will.
You have your flaws. Sure you do! People have deteriorated you over the years. They dirty your coast, your roads, pollute you and are too corrupt to even try and help you grow. But then every city has their share of flaws don't they? and how can I blame you for something that people have done to you? I still love you.I still argue in your support be it with fellow Indians or foreigners. I particularly hate it when foreigners criticize you. I get very defensive even though they have valid arguments. I guess I'm possessive and would react the same way if anyone spoke about anything I loved as much as I love you.
I also feel that some people get very judgmental and quickly form a negative opinion about you without even really getting to you what you're all about. I wish they gave me a chance to change their opinion.
Anyway leaving the others and coming back to me, you are my city of firsts. My first crush, my first love, my first heartbreak, my first friend, first job, and so many more. I have so many memories attached to you. Playing in the waters of Juhu Beach, riding the horse carriage at Gateway of India, drinking my first beer at Leopold, the first local train ride to Jai Hind College, my first visit to a nightclub (Remember Scottish Arms?), the first time I got ragged in college (had to propose to the South Indian dosa guy in Hindi) amongst others that if I start typing them down will fill countless pages.
I only wish I was able to increase the pace of your development and help reduce corruption to make you into a city you deserve to be. A city that will stand out amongst the rest as one of the best in the world. Although it looks like a distant dream at the moment can't really out rule the possibility can we?

I don't know where life will take me in the future. But be rest assured my heart will always lie in you. You can take a Bombayite out of Bombay but you can never take Bombay out of a Bombayite!
Love always