I will survive

Life's been tough post vacation. God has his way of balancing it out for you I suppose. So exactly one year after my ICU saga I fall sick again..and the timing couldn't have been better. Just the time I was submerged in work.
Things are better now, health wise but work pressure is building up. Stress, deadlines and goals to achieve in limited time.
This is the major problem I face. If a herculean responsibility is entrusted upon me, I am sure I can deliver even if it means working 24 hours in the day. The issue arises when your subordinates, colleagues or seniors will not or do not deliver with the same speed and efficiency which eventually will effect your own performance and that's something I cannot bear.
The competitive, winning streak in me which I had tried to suppress for a while now is back and with a vengeance. I am trying to achieve the impossible, venture into a zone I have stayed away from before. Well  if this doesn't work out the way it should, which in most likelihood it won't, I'm not sure how I will be able to deal with this failure. I've put in too much into this project, every braincell I possibly have has been utilized, every part of my social life sacrificed and its something I've constantly been thinking about..even while sleeping (probably why I haven't been sleeping too much of late). I am completely obsessed and I hate it.
This week will unfold all that I have put in, all my hard work, dedication and I really really hope the result comes through.
I strongly believe in the power of prayer. I don't know who, but someone out there is looking out for us constantly. Pray from me, will you?