I remember sitting on a nearly broken bench with W and talking about life 10 years ago. That's where we solved our problems. Sitting on a piece of wood, talking about a few people who weren't nice to us (in a very minuscule way), about how our hair isn't getting any longer or why X drives a swanky car where all we use are auto-rickshaws.
Although at that point in time we thought those problems were probably the biggest problems anyone faces in the universe today when we look back sitting on that same bench, all we wish for is for those micro mini problems to come back cause now we realize what problems actually mean.
Life changes..as you grow older, although you earn more than that pocket money your mum gave you and you do have the power to be much more independent that you probably were, the problems seem to increase as fast as your age.
There used to be a little person inside me, a voice that used to drive me to achieve, a sense of competition, a determination to win that has suddenly fallen asleep. These pressures, almost complacent need to prove oneself, culture, attitude of society towards certain issues, corporate life has completely lessened my urge to wanting to do anything. I wouldn't want to participate in a competition because it is probably rigged. I can't fill a corporate tender cause I know the competition has already laid hands on the client and the tender is just another eye-wash procedure.
I need to wake up. Need to get myself and my life back on track. Gather the courage to figure out what I really want to do and then actually end up doing it. I need to learn how to fight back, More importantly, speak up when the need arises and most importantly communicate! The need to show how I really feel has begun to arise.
2011 so far has been crap. For me as well as people really close to me. Hope it gets better with time. Amen!
Although at that point in time we thought those problems were probably the biggest problems anyone faces in the universe today when we look back sitting on that same bench, all we wish for is for those micro mini problems to come back cause now we realize what problems actually mean.
Life changes..as you grow older, although you earn more than that pocket money your mum gave you and you do have the power to be much more independent that you probably were, the problems seem to increase as fast as your age.
There used to be a little person inside me, a voice that used to drive me to achieve, a sense of competition, a determination to win that has suddenly fallen asleep. These pressures, almost complacent need to prove oneself, culture, attitude of society towards certain issues, corporate life has completely lessened my urge to wanting to do anything. I wouldn't want to participate in a competition because it is probably rigged. I can't fill a corporate tender cause I know the competition has already laid hands on the client and the tender is just another eye-wash procedure.
I need to wake up. Need to get myself and my life back on track. Gather the courage to figure out what I really want to do and then actually end up doing it. I need to learn how to fight back, More importantly, speak up when the need arises and most importantly communicate! The need to show how I really feel has begun to arise.
2011 so far has been crap. For me as well as people really close to me. Hope it gets better with time. Amen!
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